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Hi Sean,

I hope this message finds you and all doing well. I know this is off topic so to speak but I could not find another way to share this with you and hope posting it here is okay with you. If not, please let me know. 💐

I’ve had certain questions regarding ACIM for years and despite the many times I thought I understood, they were never answered in ACIM.

One in particular is what I believe ACIM states as well as many of the teachers of ACIM which is that our ego created our body to prove its separateness. I recall Kenneth Wapnick going so far as to say that our infant bodies were a way of our providing our innocence by inhabiting such a small body (the ego’s way of gaining sympathy and what have you).

I began asking my own inner teacher if this was true, that our ego created my/our bodies. I immediately heard/felt from what I have come to know as God, that no, we did not create our own bodies but that these are a precious gift we were given to be able to have this dream of himself in form on the planet.

I understand that in reality this is not my/our home but when I deny that this is the experience I seem to be having I suffer because in many ways it is the reality I’m having, even though I understand that this is not fundamentally who/what I am, and I am not a body, and this is not my home, etc. but I don’t get where the denying comes from.

I’ve read the lessons over for years and even attended several workshops and read many books, listen to audio’s and done a lot of learning on this topic, but ultimately I go back to my own inner teacher which tells me what is my truth and some of what ACIM teaches just doesn’t add up.

In all honesty, I have to say that even the fact that there is a moment in time when “we” decided to build a wall (of sorts) to keep God out and are here to undo that no longer feels right in my heart, because what I’ve learned is that there is nothing that is “not” of God, so if there is an “ego” whether it be thought or otherwise, where did that come from other than God?

If there is no separate “me” and I am very sure, this character has never actually existed other than in God’s movie, then who created this “other” person that could put up this wall, or “chose” to listen to the ego? How could the “me” that doesn’t exist do all this?

I think that the ego and everything else that is condemned as taking us “off course” is but another piece on God’s chessboard of life, and this is his movie, so if he wants the good, the bad and the ugly, he’s got it. If he wants us to overcome an egoic construct that “we” think we made, then whether it comes through ACIM, Jesus, the Bible, or any other teaching it will be here for us to find.

However, in reality, to me, it feels more like this was a character deliberately put in the movie for us to overcome, not unlike mastering another level in a videogame, seeing the villain become the victor or reading a chapter where all does not go well, and still we are highly interested.

When/how did the non-existent “me/you/we/they/us” have the ability to create, even though I understand we never really did create it, this fiction that we are all now tying to undo if all that there is/has even been, is God?

And even if, because we are the creators of our own realities, we somehow inadvertently created whatever nightmare we may be living (seemingly individually or collectively), who is the creator within us doing the creating?

And lastly, if creation is already done and all we are doing is remembering the past, what has already happened, then why are so many “enlightened/aware” beings doing so much to help the planet reach a new day where love & light will guide it?

Haven’t we already done this? Wouldn’t some of these people already know this? Why are they all struggling to usher in the New Earth?

As you can see there are many things contained in ACIM that I have questions about and it feels that no matter how many times I’ve asked them of people who teach this work, it is never the same answer, and most often they are so very committed to the only answers being those that are stated in ACIM that they can’t imagine it being anything else so the mind is closed to any other possibilities.

And that’s fine, but it’s no different than those who only believe in the Bible, or an Evolutionist who believes who only believes in evolution, or an Atheist who believes there’s nothing, ad infinitum.

Each are just as sure that their way is the one and only way one that they refuse to even hear anything else, and I find this is true with most ACIM students and teachers as well.

What makes ACIM the one truth?

It has many things in it that contradict each other but I’ve found that instead of discussing these things to see what might have been truly intended, they become locked down into this absolute mindset which at least to me, is the very antithesis of what we want to do when we are trying to find the truth in anything.

There should be room for questions, discussions, and not just “According to ACIM . . . “ that’s all well and good but what about seeing what the question is and if ACIM answers it?

I was inspired from within to not seek outside information in whatever form because all I needed to know was always within so when I really don’t know, I do ask within and the answers I get are that all roads lead back home, so it doesn’t really matter which one anyone takes.

I’ve heard that there is no such thing as an ego, but it is a prop in God’s movie for each of us to overcome like mastering a new level, and that we never did put up any such door to keep him out or eat an apple from a tree without his hand doing it all.

That in reality “we” have never done anything, because we are merely a character in his movie. If this is all true, what what are “we” undoing? Practicing? Studying? Teaching? Lessons?

God tells me that he and I are one, that we could never possibly be two, so who am I praying to? Who am I talking to? He says, it is him talking to his mortal self, so again, there was never a “me” who has done anything, which makes sense so far as everyone’s innocence goes, but then this mad thing comes along called the ego, that somehow “we” created and it has led us astray since then. That just doesn’t make any sense.

Either we are all God in drag, and he is doing all of it, no matter what it seems like to our human senses, or there’s a separate us that seems to show up at times, just to rock the boat and that I am positive is not true.

It feels like this is just another piece in God’s puzzle to have us figure out, but is no different from anything else anyone else believes must be the absolute truth.

I believe that Jesus and everyone and everything else on this planet, in this dream of God in form, has always been and will always be, just that, God. What does God need to undo? It is only the character us that would take offense to that because it thinks “it” is real, but who is playing the character? God. If “I” can’t even breathe for myself, I don’t think “I” am doing anything else, so I place all responsibility for this dream, this world and this character on God.

Maybe this is why the Bible says, “Not until you place all responsibility on me . . .?”

Thank you for your openness in allowing me to share these thoughts with you.

It would be most welcome and lovely if you felt inspired to reply.

Eternal blessings - Anna 💖🙏🏼✨

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Hi Anna,

As I read these questions a kind of meta-theme running through them is that you know how to ask questions of your inner teacher AND you trust its answers.

And then sort of adjacent to that, your inner teacher gives you answers that at least appear to contradict popular understandings (and/or misunderstandings, which are legion) of A Course in Miracles.

In the second section of the Preface to ACIM ("What It Is"), Helen Schucman, writing as Helen (without the complex psychology of Jesus writing through Helen), observed that A Course in Miracles "makes no claim to finality" and that the Workbook lessons are NOT intended to "bring the student's learning to completion," adding that at the end of their student, "the reader is left in the hands of his or her own Internal Teacher, Who will direct all subsequent learning as He sees fit."

This neatly syncopates (as Helen observed) with the Workbook's Epilogue:

"This course is a beginning, not an end. Your Friend goes with you. You are not alone . . . He will direct your efforts, telling you exactly what to do, how to direct your mind, and when to come to Him in silence, asking for His sure direction and His certain word . . . You will be told exactly what God wills for you each time there is a choice to make" (W-ep.1:1-3, 3:3, 5:3).

In other words, it is possible that your study of the course - to which you are clearly devoted and attentive - has yielded the very fruit it promises to yield: you and your inner teacher are in a high-functioning dialogic relationship. And in it, your Teacher is gently pointing out that ACIM is not the end and your path now includes language and concepts that appear antithetical the course.

We forget sometimes that ACIM is just that: a course. And courses aren't spiritual paths (more like steps along spiritual paths). They are means to ends - they have specific learning goals and when we have met those goals, we move on. We bring the learning into application. I think sometimes of learning CPR, right? We learn on dummies - we study a little, we practice a little, we pass the course and then we go out into the world. And if we are called to use that skill, it will almost certainly NOT be on an artificial body, with a nurse or other teacher watching over us, and no stakes at all.

I think we can and should understand ACIM in a similar way. Its goal is to teach us how to discern between ego and Holy Spirit (or inner teacher), and then listen ONLY to the latter, who will guide us on the next steps of our journey.

And sometimes it is hard to retrofit those next steps onto the ones that came before. Critically, usually, we don't HAVE to retrofit them. Or so MY Inner Teacher says :)

There is more to say, here. You are raising a lot of interesting questions. But I wanted to begin by sharing that you appear to have already threaded the very needle ACIM is given us to thread. It's no surprise that you are being called now to engage in deeper ways with life, setting aside the metaphysics and so-called "rules" for a more radical healing. Jesus is not playing games here.

I am sure this connects up (and probably extends) with your professional training and calling.

I am happy to continue responding here. You can also send me an email through the contact page on seanreagan.com. Whatever makes the most sense and is most comfortable. Thank you for reaching out - I am always grateful for thoughtful dialogues with friends about how we are to be "loving in a loveless place made out of darkness and deceit, for thus are darkness and deceit undone" (T-14.IV.4:10).

Have a wonderful weekend, Anna - let's keep talking!

~ Sean

P.S. When we attain that "high-functioning dialogic relationship" with our inner teacher, we are apt to get VERY specific instructions for how to act in the world and this can be confusing because the course itself tends to be relatively silent on HOW to act. But it is clear that such specificity is unconditionally an aspect of our relationship with the Holy Spirit (e.g., T-1.4:2). Trusting our self is hard!

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Hi Sean, thanks very much for a beautiful posting. I've been reading/following what you write for quite some time now and I have to say, for me at least, you present this material in such an open and honest way that it is easily understandable which is probably why I keep reading whatever you post. I've read/watched others such as Kenneth Wapnick and David Hoffmeister and while I found their takes on the same material interesting, it always seemed to go awry somewhere in the teaching which would then lead me to question everything all over again, which also had a purpose.

Like yourself, I can't just laugh, dismiss or tell myself that what is happening, (real or otherwise) is not what I am seeing as that just feels like plain denial and not right for me. I know beyond the veil we are all love and one and God, but the images as you mentioned, are no less horrifying because I know this, so I greatly appreciate your openness and honesty about how you feel because I'm sure many of us feel the same.

I sometimes feel as a psychotherapist that I am walking our other selves back home while simultaneously aware that everyone is walking me home. If my heart didn't crack wide open I would wonder who/what I am, to say I am not a body, I am free, is true, but that I see bodies that are suffering and bloodied also requires my compassion, empathy and love despite their unreality, in reality.

I appreciate you Sean and know what you do is not easy, it's great to be a commentator with no one to talk back but you open yourself up to all sorts of feedback and always do your best to answer each as gracefully and honestly as possible.

Thanks dear friend and brother for bringing light to the world at this crucial time when we really need it, and if it is already done, and we are just remembering, that's fine too, but while we are watching the same nightmare in this instance, this war, I am very grateful I get to exhale under your umbrella and say thank you from my heart and soul.

May eternal blessings be yours - Anna

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Hi Anna,

Thank you for the kind words.

I love this: "I am walking our other selves back home while simultaneously aware that everyone is walking me home." That is really ACIM in a nutshell, and when we are focused on being a helpful fellow traveler (kind, patient, gentle, honest, nonviolent, etc), a kind of psychic daisy chain is woven, and it holds all of us.

Thank you for writing that.

Our practice grounds out in this experience: this experience right here and now! Compassion and empathy heal our minds and other minds as well, and humility - which I think has to do with owning our experience without a lot of spiritual aggrandizing - allows us to accept the compassion and empathy of others.

I am happy to share my umbrella with you Anna! Really, it is ours - all of ours. Thank you for being here 🙏🙏

Love,

Sean

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Thank you Sean. I need you still as well. I was listening to an interview of a musician who was also sharing his seeing the images of the tortured and murdered Ukrainians and also reminded me of the music of the man playing his cello in the rubble and the little girl in the bomb shelter singing in her precious innocent voice. He said we have the choice at any moment to choose joy even in the midst of chaos. Music can bring a joy a hope. We need each other to remind us to remember who we are. The Course reminds us of a melody in chapter 21 I.6 & 7 “a wisp of a melody” ...” you remember, from just this little part, how lovely was the song,” .” The notes are nothing. Yet you have kept them with you,....as a soft reminder...” All our brothers and and sisters are communicating....and we have the choice to choose. Thank you my brother for reminding me what I am in truth. Thank you brother for reminding me of what I am not not .

Thank you.

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Thank you Janice . . . that section about the wisp of melody has long been one of my favorite images in the course . . . and yes, we can choose to communicate - to hear, to listen, to sing, to share. It is a joy to be present to one another and to remember that our unity transcends the chaos of the world . . . Thank you for reading and sharing, Janice. So grateful to share this path with you 🙏

Sean

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Love this. Thank you for sharing!

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You can hardly I am a lessons girl eh...but I will make the foray noe😀

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How can I understand anything I see when I have judged it all amiss? Great reminder from the first few lessons....

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Yes . . . that move from perception to judgment always leads us awry . . such a subtle shift it's easy to overlook until we're all the way in . . . have been thinking about this a LOT lately, especially in terms of the Rules for Decision, one of my favorite practical sections of the Text, basically reaching a juncture where inviting the Holy Spirit to interpret and assign meaning is second nature . . . how else will we be happy?

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Thank you Sean💕

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You're welcome, Kristine. Thanks for reading. Hope all is well!

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Rules for Decision is not to be found in my old text...perhaps under a differently named chapter?

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Rules for Decision is the first section (after the introduction) in Chapter 30 "The New Beginning."

First lines: "Decisions are continuous. YOu do not always know when you are making them. But with a little practice with the ones you recognizes . . . "

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